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is it morally wrong that i'd rather be watching seinfeld right now instead of the revisits to 9/11?
and that's a serious question. is it awful that i'm mentally/emotionally exhausted with the coverage, and have been since 365 days ago? i'm asking you. yes, you. is that bad? is it? because i feel like i should feel like it is... but i don't. if that makes sense. i don't think i'm being selfish or inhumane or un-american or whatever-else by wishing for normality and, specifically, humor. i can tell you that i do feel the same way i felt last year-- tired; as a human being i need(ed) a break from the tragedy. that's nothing new. it's been said before by many people, and maybe it's already trite. but i'm merely remembering that even after one day, not even one day in fact, i was worn out from feeble attempts to coach 11-13 year old kids through a global question-answer game that i had and still have no clue how to win.
the quote is everywhere... lining memorials and blaring through the media: "we remember." of course we do. it's only been a year. but here's a fitting analogy: what about when the smoke clears? what then? there's an uncertainty circling my mind as i reflect on my work as a teacher, and as i think back to what i still remember from when i was a pre-teenager. yikes.. not much. so will we? will we really remember? and perhaps more importantly, will this hated country take the right actions, do the right thing(s) regarding political disagreements, violence, and revenge? i worry. but not for my own well-being. for the very kids i'm struggling so hard to educate, to help remember.
so, no, i don't feel like i'm wrong for wanting something else on tv. you see, i will remember. but just what it is i'll remember can't yet be told. i like to think i'm honest enough to admit i don't, and won't, fully understand this world. or my place in it. not yet, at least. i want to help people gain something out of this life. but can i really educate others if i can't explain things to myself?
i said it then, i'll say it now: it's tough to help children through something like this when you're still a child yourself.
is it morally wrong that i'd rather be watching seinfeld right now instead of the revisits to 9/11?
and that's a serious question. is it awful that i'm mentally/emotionally exhausted with the coverage, and have been since 365 days ago? i'm asking you. yes, you. is that bad? is it? because i feel like i should feel like it is... but i don't. if that makes sense. i don't think i'm being selfish or inhumane or un-american or whatever-else by wishing for normality and, specifically, humor. i can tell you that i do feel the same way i felt last year-- tired; as a human being i need(ed) a break from the tragedy. that's nothing new. it's been said before by many people, and maybe it's already trite. but i'm merely remembering that even after one day, not even one day in fact, i was worn out from feeble attempts to coach 11-13 year old kids through a global question-answer game that i had and still have no clue how to win.
the quote is everywhere... lining memorials and blaring through the media: "we remember." of course we do. it's only been a year. but here's a fitting analogy: what about when the smoke clears? what then? there's an uncertainty circling my mind as i reflect on my work as a teacher, and as i think back to what i still remember from when i was a pre-teenager. yikes.. not much. so will we? will we really remember? and perhaps more importantly, will this hated country take the right actions, do the right thing(s) regarding political disagreements, violence, and revenge? i worry. but not for my own well-being. for the very kids i'm struggling so hard to educate, to help remember.
so, no, i don't feel like i'm wrong for wanting something else on tv. you see, i will remember. but just what it is i'll remember can't yet be told. i like to think i'm honest enough to admit i don't, and won't, fully understand this world. or my place in it. not yet, at least. i want to help people gain something out of this life. but can i really educate others if i can't explain things to myself?
i said it then, i'll say it now: it's tough to help children through something like this when you're still a child yourself.
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