Marc
Went Grocery Shopping Today: w/The Most Beautiful Woman On The Planet (TMBWOTP). I know, almost certainly, that I've crossed that dreaded boundary between being a "close friend" & a "close friend". I tried (mentally) to force myself to say something, but it's almost impossible to change the conversation from "How can you like Salmon?" to "How would you like to go out sometime?" Honestly - impossible. Don't have a clue as to how to do it. But, at least I had a good time, and at least TMBWOTP enjoys my company. I can take solace in that fact (I guess).
And while we're on the subject of the Dreaded Boundary, let's just talk about how much that boundary sucks - shall we? How many times has this happened to you (and I would most likely categorize this as a "guy" thing - for women it always seems like they're the ones in control of what happens or not - guys, for the most part, seem to be the one left guessing as to where they stand at any given point in a relationship). Women just seem to be more in control of what they say, what actions they let fly, when and where they choose to make appearances. Guys just kind of get dragged around all the time. We rarely know what we did wrong if we were told something went wrong. We rarely know how to fix the problems (besides bringing flowers, being extra sweet, and apologizing our asses off). We're the ones that somehow always drop the ball and end up having to pick it back up.
[Interjection: this is coming solely from my experiences which seem to be few and far between - corelation?]
I'm at a point where I know that if I were to say something to TMBWOTP, one of two things could happen (50/50 possibility either way). (1) She could simply say "yes". Have no idea where this might lead. I'd say we were comfortable talking to each other today. After all, this is the very first time I've ever done something alone with her - so I'd say it went well. So, I guess that's a good sign. (2) She could say "no, I just don't think of you like that". Happened to me before, which could be why I'm so hesitant to go out on a limb w/her. Would things be awkward? Would she stop coming around? That's the killer in this situation - she's so ingrained in the social sphere around this new apt. Awkwardness kills.
Apologies for the personal nature of this post. It's been on my mind. I'm hoping this will help. Night.
Went Grocery Shopping Today: w/The Most Beautiful Woman On The Planet (TMBWOTP). I know, almost certainly, that I've crossed that dreaded boundary between being a "close friend" & a "close friend". I tried (mentally) to force myself to say something, but it's almost impossible to change the conversation from "How can you like Salmon?" to "How would you like to go out sometime?" Honestly - impossible. Don't have a clue as to how to do it. But, at least I had a good time, and at least TMBWOTP enjoys my company. I can take solace in that fact (I guess).
And while we're on the subject of the Dreaded Boundary, let's just talk about how much that boundary sucks - shall we? How many times has this happened to you (and I would most likely categorize this as a "guy" thing - for women it always seems like they're the ones in control of what happens or not - guys, for the most part, seem to be the one left guessing as to where they stand at any given point in a relationship). Women just seem to be more in control of what they say, what actions they let fly, when and where they choose to make appearances. Guys just kind of get dragged around all the time. We rarely know what we did wrong if we were told something went wrong. We rarely know how to fix the problems (besides bringing flowers, being extra sweet, and apologizing our asses off). We're the ones that somehow always drop the ball and end up having to pick it back up.
[Interjection: this is coming solely from my experiences which seem to be few and far between - corelation?]
I'm at a point where I know that if I were to say something to TMBWOTP, one of two things could happen (50/50 possibility either way). (1) She could simply say "yes". Have no idea where this might lead. I'd say we were comfortable talking to each other today. After all, this is the very first time I've ever done something alone with her - so I'd say it went well. So, I guess that's a good sign. (2) She could say "no, I just don't think of you like that". Happened to me before, which could be why I'm so hesitant to go out on a limb w/her. Would things be awkward? Would she stop coming around? That's the killer in this situation - she's so ingrained in the social sphere around this new apt. Awkwardness kills.
Apologies for the personal nature of this post. It's been on my mind. I'm hoping this will help. Night.
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